Title: Pray Your Gods
Author: elissahra 
Characters/Pairing(s): Dean, OC, Castiel
Rating: T
Warning: Angst
Summary: “Man is least himself when he talks in is own person.  Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth.” – Oscar Wilde.
Word Count: 874
Disclaimer:  I don’t own, I am not making money and all the characters belong to Kripke and CW network.
A/N:  Feedback is very appreciated.

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I'm pleased with the progress I'm making this year and I don't feel like I'm lost. I'm new to writing slash in any form so the whole J/R relationship hasn't did much, but I'm banking on it being an early draft and trying not to stress to much.

I've gotten some wonderful research in yesterday for the aspects of the front end of the story and broke down my outline to 4000 word sections so scene one almost wrapped up. Its the middle half that I need to spend some thought on before I write to it and stall.

Next on my Sunday research schedule is space and astrophysics because I know jack about any of it and I at least like to know the basics so when I type it I don't feel stupid and then I can sell it in my writing. Even with stretching actual scientific fact, I have to feel comfortable with it in order to make it work.

Also on the agenda is watching certain episodes and gee what a hardship there. We'll see how this weeks progress goes and how well I can keep my inner critic at bay so I can just get the rough draft done.

Title: Baptism by Blood
Author: elissahra 
Characters/Pairing(s): Dean, Castiel
Rating: M (for strong images)
Warning: Images of blood in the first section.
Summary: What is forged in hell can never remove its stain on the soul.
Word Count: 853
Disclaimer:  I don’t own, I am not making money and all the characters belong to Kripke and CW network.
A/N:  This is the first time I’ve ever written prompts for Supernatural.  Feedback is very appreciated.

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Well I think I have done it now, I've packed my summer full of writing.  Yup, after having spent a better part of a year and half just limping along in my writing I've made to commitment to do some real writing.

Lets see what is on my plate:

SGA Big Bang 2009 - the last year its going to be done and if I don't get a story written I will always kick myself and think about what if . . . and no prompts this year and I'm glad because I think I have a really good idea ahead of me.  

Team prompts SPN and I'm on Team Heaven.  Looking forward to writing the prompts.

Plus I'm trying to finish my story for Plum fan fiction, and with some outlining creativity and get that story done. 

Also I'm looking for a Beta if anyone wants to volunteer.

Well lets see what happens this summer hmm . . .

To my flist if your not on DM yet and would like to be on Dream Width I have four codes left.  I already sent one out  one and if you're already on DM let me know so I can find you and add you to my circle :)

See ya on the other side.

So this has been an interesting day.  I've enjoyed my new laptop and I feel really spoiled now.  My kids are thrilled to have me in the room as them.  I feel like I've been a bad mommy.

I haven't written anything for a while in my Plum world.  Then someone reviewed every Plum story I've ever posted and wow I'm humbled.  The one comment though that kept comming back to me was that my grammar needed work and I confused words.  Yeah that was when I posted without a beta or even really proofing my work. 

Bad, bad me.

So my thinking is that I should go back and correct all my bad grammar.  Because its sucks trying to read something when all the bad grammar got in the way.  I really should go back and fix it, and I still have unfinished stories sitting online and going back and proof reading all my stuff might help me get back into writing again.

I am now on DM under my name Elissahra.  I have been busy looking for my friends over there.  I wanted to know if Kimberlydfr and gillianoz are there if not let me know and I'll send out an invite.

I am exited and looking forward to expanding what I have enjoyed here to another place that I know people who share my interests without all the crap.

Hey let me know 'Kay.

~E

My mother has been cleaning her apartment and over time she has sent to me my stuff that she's kept over the years.  I just got some angsty teen poetry from my and my very first story in middle school.

Reading it makes my teeth itch. 

Than again she had a point my middle school story would be a good entry in the worst story ever contest.  Thoughts to ponder.  Its nice to know that twenty years later I can write better and most the time I get more words spelled right instead of wrong. *cheers*.

I wonder if any one ever reads the "greatest" poetry of their youth and cringe.  Oh hey here's a gem of a poem.  And for your reading pleasure I will make sure I spell this correctly promise.

My soul bleeds these empty tears
Oh my Lord save me from my blade.
Shame me not for I have only one thing.
Life!

How am I to answer these sorry questions of my past hell.
Find me, guide me, make me understand.
Love me, rock me, make me listen.

Please bring me back from sadness, loneliness nights and the dark that smothers me so.

Love lies, a time of peace.
Sing me a sad song.
I cry a sad cry.
Say love, say true, bring me home, bring me home, bring me home to you.

Circa 1991.

I was so freakin emo.  Its a sad sad world really. 

Title:  Radio Nowhere (5/?)
Author:  </a></b></a>elissahra 
Rating:  M (language mostly)
Warnings:  None
Genre:  General
Spoilers:  For all seasons but heavy for season 4
Disclaimers:  I do not own Supernatural and have no rights.  This is just me having fun writing about one of my favorite shows.
Summary:  Dean has always had trouble accepting that he mattered beyond what he could do for his family.  Can he accept his destiny or will it destroy them all.  (My AU take on Season 4)

Title:  Radio Nowhere (4/?)
Author:  </a></b></a>elissahra 
Rating:  M (language mostly)
Warnings:  None
Genre:  General
Spoilers:  For all seasons but heavy for season 4
Disclaimers:  I do not own Supernatural and have not rights.  This is just me having fun writing about one of my favorite shows.
Summary:  Dean has always had trouble accepting that he mattered beyond what he could do for his family.  Can he accept his destiny or will it destroy them all.  (My AU take on Season 4)






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Title:  Radio Nowhere (3/?)
Author:  elissahra 
Rating:  M (language mostly)
Warnings:  None
Genre:  General
Spoilers:  For all seasons but heavy for season 4
Disclaimers:  I do not own Supernatural and have not rights.  This is just me having fun writing about one of my favorite shows.
Summary:  Dean has always had trouble accepting that he mattered beyond what he could do for his family.  Can he accept his destiny or will it destroy them all.  (My AU take on Season 4)

Because I must be the biggest dork in the world I have no clue on how to customize my blog!!!!  I see everyone who has a paid account with these really cool pages and I have no clue on how they did it!

ANY anywhere know a good place to find info on how to do this?  I feel stupid but I really want my page to be something fun.

Thanks in advance !!!

Title:  Radio Nowhere (2/?)
Author: 
Rating:  M (language mostly)
Warnings:  None
Genre:  General
Spoilers:  For all seasons but heavy for season 4
Disclaimers:  I do not own Supernatural and have not rights.  This is just me having fun writing about one of my favorite shows.
Summary:  Dean has always had trouble accepting that he mattered beyond what he could do for his family.  Can he accept his destiny or will it destroy them all.  (My AU take on Season 4)

Title:  Radio Nowhere
Author:  elissahra 
Rating:  M (language mostly)
Warnings:  None
Genre:  General
Spoilers:  For all seasons but heavy for season 4
Disclaimers:  I do not own Supernatural and have not rights.  This is just me having fun writing about one of my favorite shows.
Summary:  Dean has always had trouble accepting that he mattered beyond what he could do for his family.  Can he accept his destiny or will it destroy them all.  (My AU take on Season 4)

Neither prosperity nor empire nor heaven can be worth winning at the price of a virulent temper, bloody hands, an anguished spirit, and a vain hatred of the rest of the world. -John Milton

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When I got home from work last night my husband broke the bad news, he was laid off from his job. And now he's talking about possibly relocating to another state.

To say that I'm terrified is an understatement. The ironic deal to all of this we both thought I would most likely get laid off from my job first. My company has been down sizing for a year and if things keep going they way they have well I wouldn't be surprise if it got bought out and I had to find another job.

Loosing a job upsets me yes, but the way things are going here in Oregon, the unemployment rate keeps getting worse. More companies are pulling out of the community I live in and gah! It makes for sleepless nights.

I really don't want to have to relocate to another state, and I think that has me more upset than anything else. Locating to another part of Oregon if my husband and I can find good work yeah I can do that, but even with the depressed real estate market, I'm not sure our credit if good enough to buy another house. We have a house here, and we have thankfully equity in our house. Its just the uncertainty that's driving me insane. I really hate having to start over again.

Why is it every holiday season I feel like I really really need to run away screaming? Add the mass stress over whether or not I'll have a job come the new year and yeah not happy.

I spent all day yesterday Christmas shopping and keeping an eye on my dollars spent. I raided my change jar so I would have enough money to offer up some stocking stuffers for my kids.

I've never been one to try to out due every holiday and buy the biggest gadget, or the hottest trends to appease my children. And thankfully they know that what's important is that they are loved and we'll get to spend four days together this year, because Support Services will be closed for the first time after Christmas.

I always get pissy through Christmas and it dose not help that my husband wants all his relatives to come over. I love to have company, but its the freakin' need on my husbands part to have a house so spotless that I just want to knock him flat. If people want to see us, come on over, if they want to see the damn house make an appointment. Because man I don't have the hours it takes to clean it all the way he wants it. Okay bitch fest over, I really needed to get that out.

Okay another topic - Merlin so I hear the last episode this season was amazing. For some reason I can't get onto Merlin Episodes so anyone can offer up an alternative to watching somewhere else I would love you forever.

I finally finished my best story to date - Finding Yesterday over on FF.net.

I think I could have made the ending a bit more, but over all I very pleased with what I wrote. It is the most plot heavy story I have done, and even though it took me forever to finish it was so worth it.

I would like to do a similar story for SGA, but I just haven't felt good enough at translating the characters to paper. But I can so see the Team in a plot heavy mystery. It would be neat to see it and with SCI-Fi I could do more than just contain the story in a real world setting. A SGA/Bourne/Italian Job story.

Hmmmm . . .

Okay, but before I go off and write a story I need to finish my Plum stuff. Finish and lay to rest what I have written there, I just wish sometimes I had the time and the ambition to write more. *sigh*.

Well off to bed.